yabanci sarkilar;
solid space - destination moon
max richter - november
hit the lights - three on nine
billie marten - as long as
alone and together
ghostly kisses - empty note
la tristesse du diable
e ben önereyim bari;
royal blood - figure it out
nf - can you hold me
saudade - son dans
never get used to people - life letters
cihan mürtezaoğlu - gün güzeli
the fray - heartless
yedinci ev - sarhoşum
And I've fallen.
So hard.
I've hit the ground. Gone right through it. Never in my life have I felt this. Nothing like this. I've felt shame and cowardice, weakness and strength. I've known terror and indifference, self-hate and general disgust. I've seen things that cannot be unseen.
And yet I've known nothing like this terrible, horrible, paralyzing feeling. I feel crippled. Desperate and out of control. And it keeps getting worse. Every day I feel sick. Empty and somehow aching.
Love is a heartless bastard.
Design your letters as homages to your targets. Make everything you write come back to them, as if they were all you could think about—a delirious effect. If you tell an anecdote, make it somehow relate to them. Your correspondence is a kind of mirror you are holding up to them—they get to see themselves reflected through your desire. If for some