I never had a mother, will you let me make the sun my own for now, and the ocean my son?
I'm quite good at tending to things despite my upbringing, can I raise your mountains?
I promise to keep them greener, make them my daughters
Teach them about fire, warn them about water
Until a minute ago—until Ian Fucking Floyd—it was going to be the last place I saw. The last slice of sky.
And just like that, a rushing terror punches through me. It knocks out the fabricated quiet of my Martian ocean, and the sheer magnitude of what nearly happened, of all the things I love that I would have missed out on if Ian hadn’t come for me, sweeps through my brain like a rake.
Dogs. Three a.m. in the summer. Sadie and Mara being absolute idiots, and me laughing at them. Hiking trips, kiwi iced tea, that Greek restaurant I never got around to trying, elegant code, the next season of Stranger Things, really good sex, a Nature publication, seeing humans on Mars, the ending of A Song of Ice and Fire—
Tüm Donanımımı Kullandım, Ama …
🎵 One by one they pass me by
—Teker teker yanımdan geçtiler
And I used up my supplies
—Ve tüm donanımımı kullandım
Out of water, Out of hope
—Susuz, umutsuz.
Can't make fire; only smoke
—Ateş çıkaramıyorum; yalnızca duman.
She's confusing, captivating, and we're completely wrong for each other in all the right ways. She's a flame, and I'm going to get burned. An ocean and I'm going to drown.
I'm broken in two, the message said. In two, it was the only thought I could keep, sitting in my seat, how losing a person could make more of us, the living, makes us two.
Sayfa 167 - Jonathan Cape London, Penguin Random House UKKitabı okudu
Sometimes, when I'm careless, I think survival is easy: you just keep moving forward with what you have, or what's left of what you were given, until something changes--or you realize, at last, that you can change without disappearing, that all you had to do was wait until the storm passes you over and you find that -yes- your name is still attached to a living thing.
Sayfa 137 - Jonathan Cape London, Penguin Random House UKKitabı okudu