By the way-- when it comes to free hugs, gender doesn't matter for me. But for anything more than that, I'd only pursue it with a woman. And the reason behind that... was that I didn't want to accept that I was a woman. It wasn't that I want to be a man: it was like I hated belonging to a gender at all. I was excessively afraid being defined as a woman before I was seen as myself. Plus, I was more sexsually interested in women's bodies than men's .