Two years on, at Stretford Stadium I represent the school in the 400 meters dash (of sorts), legs muddied, face wet with rain, I clamber in at fourth place. My father is standing by the finishing-line. As I approach him he says, ‘You didn’t win,’ and he looks away, and life decomposes in a bucket. Perhaps I didn’t win but it didn’t help anyone to point it out.
Demek mutsuzsun… Ne mutlu!
Ne popüler bir his hali ki Dostoyevski bu hale özel bir bölüm yazmış, Morrissey şarkı yapmış, Almanlar “schaderfreude” kelimesini dünyaya armağan etmiş, Türklerse “kıçına kına yak” deyivermiş.
Aziz Morrissey
Dünya, her günün pazar günü gibi olduğu, insanın âşık olmak için çabalarken hayal kırıklıklarıyla tanışıp, aldığı yaralarla büyüdüğü ve sevdiği kişi tarafından görmezden gelindikçe ona daha da yakınlaşacağı, içinde çok da güzellik barındırmayan bir yer.
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New York Dolls
Flayed alive, the Dolls may look beautiful, but they are withering fast, and around them we see Johnny Carson, Paul Newman, Cassius Clay, Robert Redford, David Cassidy, as males within the paragraphs of law. The Dolls endure the consequences of how they look, afflicted by existence yet not responsible.
David Bowie is detached from everything, yet open to everything; stripped of the notion that both art and life are impossible. He is quite real, impossibly glamorous, fearless, and quite British. How could this possibly be?
Lou Reed is unimpressed by applause, and lives a life detached from custom. His stare is cold and his romanticism is brutal. His songs are half-sung melodies of menace. He might drop dead any second, and is therefore the real thing. Examined ravenously like a museum exhibit, Lou Reed is evidently spiked to excess, and strangely loveable.
I cried for poetic language and I cried out to find those who were unafraid, those free agents, unbigoted and unshackled. I didn't want to live unseen, camouflaged within the crowd. I knew then that life could only ever be changed for the better because somebody somewhere had taken a risk－often with their own life.
"İyi çocuktum."
Morrissey / İsa'yı Affettim
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