Belief is a muscle and when you are changing a stubborn old bad habit and really stretching yourself, a he’ll bent decision is the perfect personal trainer to get your belief in shape.
We can’t tell if any of those other versions would have been better or worse. Those lives are happening, it’s true but you are happening as well and that is the happening we have to focus on.
Trying to change your life without being self-aware is like using a map to try to get somewhere you’ve never been before: if you don’t know where you’re starting from, you ain’t gonna get very far.