I hadn't problem with my body. It was my mind, that was sick. My illness can only be described as a type of monomania which makes you think about one thing, or idea. You can't stop doing it. I often lost myself for hours, deep in thought about something which was quite unimportant and could seem funny afterwards.
I mean, the life in the world outside these walls, began to seem like a dream to me. The wild ideas, the dreams inside my head became my real world and then my whole life.