• I wanted to blame someone for this particular predicament, but there was no one to be blamed. We had made a logical decision and it had come to this. It was typical aspect of being in the war. Things changed rapidly in a matter of seconds and no one had control over anyting.
  • "I'm in love with you," he said quietly.
    "Augustus," I said.
    "I am," he said. He was staring at me, and I could see the corners of his eyes crikling. "I'm in love with you, and I'm not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you."
    John Green
    Sayfa 153 - Penguin Books
  • Muse - Knights of Cydonia
    https://youtu.be/G_sBOsh-vyI

    No one's going to take me alive
    Time has come to make things right
    You and I must fight for our rights
    You and I must fight to survive
  • I am obsessed with a boy that I met 3 years ago. We were met in a office and I was an intern. He was very different than others with her attitude and style. He behaves like he doesn’t care anything at all. He was very quiet and you can understand easily that he is just interesting on his own way. When our first chat he was staring at me like I am a food and he is starving. At first I was confused. I just couldn’t understand why he is looking like that. I felt important with his glance. When I enter his room he always stopped, cut his speech and staring at me. Sometimes I feel very ashamed. I thought that everybody looking at to caught us.

    After a couple days with our exchange glances his eyes came to visit me in my dreams. I just couldn’t stop thinking of him. Working hours are became the best time for me. But i was very shy. I was trying to talk with him once. We were talking on our work area and I said bunch of stupid things. I just can’t thinking when he is staring at me. I was felling apart.

    After a couple weeks it is time to say goodbye to me. My internship period is completed. When my very last day I shake everybody’s hand to say goodbye. But that boy just came and hugged me. It was so unexpected.

    I met a girl in that office and she wanted to meet me. I said OK because I know that she is very close to that boy. The boy who I am in love with.

    I met the girl in a small cafe. Her phone rang when we were talking. I saw his name on the screen of the phone. He said that he is hanging with his friends and wanted to meet with us. I just don’t wanted to go. I want to talk with him and spend my years to understand him but just with him. I don’t want the others. Because of that I said no and we didn’t meet that day.

    When our second meeting with the girl he phoned again. I was ready this time. I said that he can come to a bar which we were deciced to go. He said he will come but he never showed. I was very angry and disappointed. The girl invited a stranger boy to hang with us.

    I wanted to forget him and everything so I drink. The stranger boy was interested in me. We had a small chat. He hugged me after a couple glass of wine. We were drunk and we danced. I remember her face when I was dancing with that boy. She was just hate me. Their plan went down to plughole.

    After that I saw him few times at my university. I saw him with a girl once they were just walking. He was not staring at me like he did before. He was very stabile.

    During 3 years and after that night with other boy i was trying to reach him on every social media platform. I sent an email to him to asked his opinion about my future career and invite him to drink a cup of coffee. He sent me a disgusting answer. It was very rude. He was trying to hurt me. I never answered and we never communicate with each other again. I added him on instagram once and trying to him a second message but he blocked me.

    That blocked was not just a blocked. He blocage every possibilities of us. I hurt his feelings. From now one this is a war for him.

    I know this is very stupid but i am still thinking about him. I learned from linkedin that he has his own office right now.

    tl;dr What I am going to now? Do I chase my dreams and trust my instincts? I just can’t stop thinking about him and I feel like I have to say sorry to him from his face. Or Do I have to forget him and other things which we didn’t share and had been just dreamed
  • We stopped waiting for a light-bulb moment a long time ago. It’s never going to come. Sometimes things just happen.
  • “And you? What do you want?”
    What did I want? So many things, an impossible number of things. I wanted this beach and this moment to last forever, to never fade away into memory. I wanted to peek inside Prue’s brain to find out the answers to questions I didn’t know how to put into words. I wanted to kiss a pretty girl on a beach and not have to worry about whether eighteen would come and go and I’d be the first Fernweh woman since my great-great-great-great-great-great-namesake to remain as normal as I currently was. I wanted a hundred million things, but I knew how to ask for zero of them. I pointed east, across the water, my arm indicting the entire world, the entire known planet.
    “What more could I want?” I said.
    But I think we both knew the answer to that question was:
    Lots lots lots lots lots.
  • Loneliness Treatment A: Remove Your Negatively Tinted Glasses

    Loneliness makes us constantly on guard, prepared for the disappointment and rejection we are sure will come. As a result, we miss opportunities to make social connections and we behave in ways that push others away. In order to challenge these distorted perceptions and avoid acting in self-defeating ways we need to do three things.

    1. Fight the Pessimism!
    Loneliness makes our minds generate instant negative thoughts as soon as we contemplate engaging in social interaction. (...) Although we are unlikely to prevent pessimistic scenarios from elbowing their way into our thoughts, the best way to fight our fears and pessimism is to purposefully visualize scenarios of success that are both reasonable and realistic. By picturing successful outcomes in our minds we are more likely to recognize such opportunities when they arise and to take advantage of them.

    2. Give the Benefit of the Doubt!
    Another misperception loneliness burdens us with is that we tend to assume the worst about how others feel about us. (...) Understandable as our fears are when we already feel lonely and leery of rejection, indulging them will only bring about the very thing we seek to avoid. Instead, we must battle the internal tide of skepticism we feel and give the new people in our lives and the ones with whom we have existing relationships the benefit of the doubt.

    3. Take Action!
    Chronic loneliness causes us to perceive ourselves as passive victims of our harsh circumstances and we feel helpless to change our social, emotional, or intimate isolation. Such feelings, powerful as they might be, are nonetheless founded on perceptions that are too negative and pessimistic. There are always steps we can take to improve our situation. It is important to do so because taking action of any kind will make us feel better about ourselves as well as about our prospects.