I gaze upon all the Edens that had fallen in me.
I saw Edens that I had held in my hands but let go of.
I saw promises I did not keep;
pains I did not soothe,
wounds I did not heal,
tears I did not shed.
I saw deaths I did not mourn,
prayers I did not answer,
doors I did not open,
doors I did not close,
lovers I left behind,
and dreams I did not live.
I saw all that was offered to me,
that I could not accept.
I saw the letters I wished for,
but never received.
I saw all that would have been,
but never will be.