She was reminded, more than once, of having always said she would never marry, and assured that it would be a great deal better for her to remain single.
You are very kind, but I know what my manners were to you. So cold and artificial! I had always a part to act. It was a life of deceit! I know that I must have disgusted you.
I long to make apologies, excuses, to urge something for myself. I feel it so very due. But unfortunately -in short, if your compassion does not stand my friend.