I will make them pay. It seems those who live outside our world can exist for thousands of years. I don't know how this is possible, but if I survive my 100 seasons of servitude, I will do everything I can do to end this horror.
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As long as I have breath, I will fight.
Do I protect him because I love him? Do I kill him because he doesn't love me back? Do I continue with my duty? What will become of me if I simply disobeyed? It's a lot of stress for creature not used to having any emotion. it's almost too much. But even if this creature wanted to end it all, it couldn't.