“I didn’t know Ryan knew sign language,” Caroline says next to me.
“He doesn’t. He didn’t, I mean. I didn’t know he was learning.” My stare is locked on him. “I offered to teach him, but we hadn’t gotten around to starting yet.” I take a sharp inhale, attempting to compose myself. “My dad is deaf.”
“Oh, Indy.” She places her hand on top of mine, the both of us watching Ryan and Sarah. “That man loves you. That right there is quiet love.” ”
Benden sana
Ayıcık yuvasını ne de çok özlemiş. Ah, yatağında kıvrılmayı nasıl da istemiş. O yüzden sımsıkı yummuş gözlerini, demiş ki: " Benim bütün anılarım sihirli!"
Sayfa 11Kitabı okudu
İnsan evinde ağlar mı Yağmur
" Mutlu anlarını hatırla, gözlerini kapa, evi düşün,"
Sayfa 8Kitabı okudu
Benden sana hediye çocukluğum
"Hatırladığın her güzellikte, sevginin gücüyle daha da çoğalacağız, hiç korku kalmasın içinde."
Sayfa 13Kitabı okudu
Ah Caroline ... Seviyorsan git konuş bence
Fakat ben ölmedikçe Robert hastalandığımı duyamaz ki . Artık hareket edemez konuşamaz hale geldigimde , buz gibi mezar taşı üzerinde yatarken belki öğrenir de bana koşar .
when it comes to suicide,
we like to talk about
how the person died:
a gun to the head,
an overdose,
a rope hanging from the ceiling.
but people do not die
from a rope
hanging from the ceiling.
Please tell her..
lost:
insecurity.
shaky voice,
loose clothing,
always sucking in her stomach.
last seen the other day
for a split second in the mirror,
telling me she was right.
if found:
please tell her
I know she meant well.
but I have nothing to hide
anymore.
the problem was not
asking him
to complete me.
the problem was
believing I was incomplete
to begin with.
I was nothing
and she was absolutely everything.
my birthday cake cures past mistakes
with each blown-out candle flame.
don’t mistake the freefall
for floating.
I did that once.
I never saw
the pavement coming.
you kiss my forehead.
pause.
. . .
rewind
play.
you kiss my forehead.
rewind.
play.
you kiss my forehead.
rewind.
play.