This is what I never knew about loss - it's also about what you gain. You carry weight that you never had before. It's never behind you. It's alongside you.
'forever': people say it in wedding vows all the time like they understand what it means, but actual forever is fucking huge.
“She’d not considered, until this second, what she should say in parting. Being a grown-up was so strange. In someone’s life and their bed constantly for two years, and then suddenly unable to offer them so much intimacy as a coffee.”
“What Dave Is Typing thought of me would live in my brain for a fraction of a microsecond. You always care what people think of you, which is wonderful, but sometimes to your detriment.”
“The mental process must’ve gone: I love Harriet, I love my family, I love the idea of marrying her=bingo, it’s all love. Yet without noticing “I” prefixed every aspect.”