I could never accept life as it was,
i could never gobble down all its poisons
but there were parts,
tenuous magic parts
open for the asking.
I re formulated
I don't know when,
date, time, all that
but the change occurred.
something in me relaxed, smoothed out.
i no longer had to prove that I was a man,
I didn't have to prove anything.
I began to see things:
coffee cups lined up behind a counter in a cafe.
or a dog walking along a sidewalk.