"Dum spiro, spero"
There's a light... Of what ?
Oh wait, is there any hope ?
Oh no, it's getting weaker and weaker
As my heart's sinking into deeper and deeper.
Shaking hands and trembling souls.
A leaf of tree falling down
The last laugh of a clown
As shallow.... and holes of horrors.
Oh wait, is there any man
Who's painting a leaf of life... But damn
Is this a man named Behrman ?
With whom a fading hope's glowing down,
As his own life's flickering candle reaches its end.
But Isn't life a labyrinth which is a dead end?
Shhh... Listen carefully to hear the violins
Crying out violence while singing of those lines
"Hope is a dangerous thing for me to have
But I have it......(Yet)
I have it......
Yet......."
Night... At 4 o'clock
Tik tak tok , tik tak tok.
Thoughts flying in my head
Reminding me of what's been said
Tik tak tok, tik tak tok.
It's too late as there's a dead
Of what? Never been said
Tik tak tok, tik tak tok.
While I sip, while I sip
Sinking into the deep
Tik tak tok, tik tak tok.
Oh wait it's gone of long
It's been all over wrong
Tik tak tok, tik tak tok.
Don't hesitate while it comes along
As it was what
u had been longing for
Tik tak tok, tik tak tok.
Now don't ask what for
It's too late, it's 4
Tik tak tok, tik tak tok,
The clock singing along
Tik tak tok, tik tak tok.
Bu anı o kadar çok istiyorum ki...
She tilts her head to the side.
"Get on your knees then beg."
He hates how he is giving in to her demand but his own body isn't even letting him stay stubborn anymore. he lets out a loud sigh and he then gets on his knees and he looks at her like he is waiting for further instructions. A satisfied smile appeirs on her lips. She croses her legs and leans back
"Beg, but since you tired me so much you're gonna call me "Mommy" while begging. "
His face gets red and he hates that he is not able to control himself around her to act like the cool and calm man she used to think he was. he looks at her and the way she is making him beg with a smirk on her face. he swallows everything inside him and he begins to beg her in the way she wants him to.
"Please Mommy. You're so beautiful and irresistible. I should have gotten down on my knees for you a long time ago. Please please please take me as your own."
This is what you want me to leave it from your door,
Are you gonna leave me bleeding on your floor?
Think of me so anxiously while waiting at your window
your life is your life
don’t let it be clubbed into dank submission.
be on the watch.
there are ways out.
there is light somewhere.
it may not be much light but
it beats the darkness.
be on the watch.
the gods will offer you chances.
know them.
take them.
you can’t beat death but
you can beat death in life, sometimes.
and the more often you learn to do it,
the more light there will be.
your life is your life.
know it while you have it.
you are marvelous
the gods wait to delight
in you.
-- by Charles Bukowski
NF - How Could You Leave Us?!
How could you leave us so unexpected?
We waited, we waited
For you but you just left us
We needed you, I needed you
Welcome to the bottom of hell
They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell
You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well
Sit in my room, tears running down my face and I yell
Into my pillowcases, say you coming to get us
Then call a minute later just to tell us you not, I'm humiliated
I'm in a room with a parent that I barely know
Some lady in the corner watching us, while she taking notes
I don't get it mom, don't you want to watch your babies grow?
I guess pills are more important, all you have to say is "no"
But you won't do it, will you? You gon' keep popping 'til those pills kill you
I know you gone but I can still feel you
Why would you leave us?
Why would you leave us?
How could you leave us here?
How could you leave us?
Why would you leave us? Oh
Hey