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"Shane’s hands cradled Ilya’s face as he kissed him with the force of everything they had almost said out loud."
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Doesn't your work interest you, Esther?"
"Oh, it does, it does," I said. "It interests me very much." I felt like yelling the words, as if that might make them more convincing, but I controlled myself.
All my life I'd told myself studying and reading and writing and working like mad was what I wanted to do, and it actually seemed to be true, I did everything well enough and got all A's, and by the time I made it to college nobody could stop me.
"What do you have in mind after you graduate?"
What I always thought I had in mind was getting some big scholarship to graduate school or a grant to study all over Europe, and then I thought I'd be a professor and write books of poems or write books of poems and be an editor of some sort. Usually I had these plans on the tip of my tongue.
"I don't really know," I heard myself say. I felt a deep shock, hearing myself say that, because the minute I said it, I knew it was true.
The silence depressed me. It wasn't the silence of silence. It was my own silence.
I knew perfectly well the cars were making a noise, and the people in them and behind the lit windows of the buildings were making a noise, and the river was making a noise, but I couldn't hear a thing. The city hung in my window, flat as a poster, glittering and blinking, but it might just as well not have been there at all, for the good it did me.
İki kardeş ışıkların labirent gibi sokaklardan kanala doğru hızla ilerleyişini izledi. İlk konuşan Hamish oldu. "Şatonun or'da gurur duydum sen'le."
Mungo kendisiyle hiç gururlanmıyordu. Adamın yapışkan kanıyla sertleşen saçlarından tiksinti duyuyordu. "Ne acı bir şey için gururlanıyorsun benimle."
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