I was jealous--of that. That I'm not...that sort of person. For anyone. The Summer Court has always been neutral; they only showed backbone during those years Under the Mountain. I spared Tarquin's life because I'd heard how he wanted to even out the playing field between High Far and lesser faeries. I've been trying to do that for years. Unseccesfully, but...I spared him for that alone. And Tarquin, with his neutral court...he will never have to worry about someone walking away because the threat against their life, their children's lives, will always be there. So, yes, I was jealous of him -- because it will always be easy for him. And he will never know what it is to look up at the night sky and wish.