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i dontt really wanna go right now,
i just really wanna die right now.
nothing for me on this earth,
ive been fucked up since my birth.
break my leg, hurt me bad,
make mе cry, im so sad.
FIG TREE
"I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet."
- Sylvia Plath
Reklam
Cannibal
Remember that time way back when I kissed a guy who ate his women friends
Now only dogs will follow me
Is he following?
I bite at the hand that feeds me
Slap at the face that eats me
Some kind of animal cannibal
Made impressions on me
Have we met before?
In some strange department store
Who knows how some people turn to strange ones?
Is it up to me to make them into dead ones?
#mockingbird
Yeah
I know sometimes
Things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey
What daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you cryin' about?
You got me
Hailie, I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I'm gone, but I'm tryna give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
'Cause you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more cryin', wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Lainie, uncle's crazy, ain't he?
Yeah, but he loves you, girl, and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusin' you
Daddy's always on the move, mama's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growin' up as daddy that he had to see
That man to me seems equal to the gods,
the man who sits opposite you
and close by listens
to your sweet voice
5 and your enticing laughter—
that indeed has stirred up the heart in my breast.
For whenever I look at you even briefly
I can no longer say a single thing,
but my tongue is frozen in silence;
10 instantly a delicate flame runs beneath my skin;
with my eyes I see nothing;
my ears make a whirring noise.
A cold sweat covers me,
trembling seizes my body,
15 and I am greener than grass.
Lacking but little of death do I seem.
Johnny
The only thing in my head is five grams of coke, fly away alone
To the edge of oblivion
I have thoughts in my head, when will all this end
Whenever I'm not alone, because a white eel will fly in
The only thing in my head is five grams of coke, fly away alone
To the edge of oblivion
I have thoughts in my head, when will all this end
Whenever I'm not alone, because a white eel will fly in
I have a damn descent, I don't catch stars, I lie like a log
I don't believe what's going on
I cluck like a hungry hen
I'm like a werewolf to the moon
My head's empty like a street
In front of your dorm, I melt like a bar
Which is lying on the counter
Going down is when you don't pull
Brother, my face is getting fucked up
My head's a brothel just like on TV
I am not surprised by such a state
Lack of goods, in my mind I get high
Whenever I'll make it or not
I will sell everything from my crib
I'm actually fucked up already
However, everything is sold already
I’m only struggling with the debts
Nose like Tabaluga
Second day without snorting
Where is the snake? White chemistry
Descending is so damn exhausting
Reklam
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