"[...] because they wouldn't have understood, and I didn't want to lose their friendship. I don't think heterosexuals will ever understand. They might tolerate us, but that's about all I think you can hope for."
Anyway, those boys. You were suspicious of their feelings because you had no reason to love yourself-not your body, not your mind. You rejected so much gentleness. What were you looking for?
For years and years I struggled just to love my life. And then
the butterfly
rose, weightless, in the wind.
"Don't love your life too much," it said,
and vanished into the world.
Oysa annem aslında ne bir dişi aslandı ne de geleneksel yoldan çıkan biriydi; dünyaya bakışı çocuğununkine fersahlarca uzak olan yalnız, yaşlı bir kadındı sadece.