Bibidibabidibo
@Estradiol
Öykü~
Sıfırdan başlayarak tırnaklarımla çabalamayı, bir şeyler yaratmayı ve o şeyin mükemmelleşme sürecini izlemeyi seviyordum.
You need a rest. You need empty moments in which you tolerate your anxiety and circling thoughts until they slow down and stop circling. You need slow, quiet activities that ground you and remind you to accept yourself in spite of huge obstacles and bad thoughts. You need to put solutions out of your mind for now, and engage in activities that have nothing to do with your ego. You need habits that strengthen your patience and focus, but also feel real and not arbitrary. You need to abandon your glorious future and build your imperfect present instead.
For beating myself up and overfunctioning
To whom do i owe the biggest apology?
No one is been crueler than i have been to me
“I don’t want to die. I just want / a little goddamn rest / and a small enough love / that I can breathe around it.”