sena rozanov
@k4lphanim
argumentative, antithetical dream girl
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Sometimes you imagine DO NOT CALL HIM also not going there. You picture the two of you both not going there at the same time and not meeting each other outside on the sidewalk; you not taking the opportunity to tell him all the ways he wronged you, not explaining that even though you were over it now -so, so over it- you just wanted to make sure he didn't try that shit again with the next girl, for her sake.
Move across the country and hope the Sadness won't find you, won't follow you like a stray dog from coast to coast. Hope the Sadness isn't just a fog on a leash, shadowing you always. Hope the Sadness can't be as fleet as you are, hope the Sadness is more rooted. Perhaps the Sadness has friends, a family, and can't just pick up and go. Look at all this stuff the Sadness has here in San Jose or Chapel Hill or wherever you're currently leaving. How's the Sadness going to survive without all this stuff? Hope this isn't one of those any-place-I-hang-my-hat-is- home-type situations where the Sadness hangs its hat on you. Hope that you are not the Sadness's home, anywhere you go, no matter how far, no matter how quickly– the Sadness lives in you. Hope to God it's not that.
"I don't want it to be tomorrow," you'll sigh, a single tear escaping as you laugh bitterly at the futility of the sentiment. "I want it to be Friday 18 July forever."
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And we will realize that Friday 18 July, like every day in history before it, was a moment, a twenty-four-hour trick of the light, a thing that happened once and never again.