deniz
@tidalwave
20
(...) they called out to me. "jungkook!"
i waved at them and smiled joyfully. or, i pretend that i was joyful. i was still clumsy at revealing my feelings and adapting to strange environments. i felt a bit ill at ease in the presence of the others, like i didn't belong there.
Reklam
there is something about the sea that makes me well up with emotions.
my dad was feeble-minded, incompetent and most importantly, a social misfit who deserted us. i was the world that was too heavy for him to bear - that world that he gave up on. a child who can never be the reason to endure it all. that was me.
flames were devouring my house. this morning, it was whole and intact, but now it was aflame. people who recognised me ran towards me, shouted unintelligible words. i stood there frozen. it tumbled down as if it's made of sand. all i could do was gaze at it with vacant eyes.
my mom died not so long ago, dad told me not to cry and didn't cry himself. i tried to obey him, but it wasn't easy.