she scanned my memories. i saw my own past from her dry, cynical point of view: i stood in the throne room of mount olympus after the war against the titans. zeus offered me a reward: godhood. i turned him down flat. i wanted justice for other demigods instead. i wanted the gods to stop being jerks and to pay attention to their kids.
a stupid request. a naive thing to wish for.
i gave up power. you never give up power.