She was sensible and clever, but eager in everything; her sorrows, her joy, could have no moderation. She was generous, amiable, interesting: she was everything but prudent.
“remember two things: i. that everything has always been the same, and keeps recurring, and it makes no difference whether you see the same things recur in a hundred years or two hundred, or in an infinite period; ii. that the longest-lived and those who will die soonest lose the same thing. the present is all that they can give up, since that is all you have, and what you do not have you cannot lose.”
“what we do now echoes in eternity.”
"thou must be like a promontory of the sea, against which though the waves beat continually, yet it both itself stands, and about it are those swelling waves stilled and quieted."
“the blazing fire makes flames and brightness out of everything thrown into it.”
“the first rule is to keep an untroubled spirit. the second is to look things in the face and know them for what they are.”
“reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears.”
“your days are numbered. use them to throw open the windows of your soul to the sun. if you do not, the sun will soon set, and you with it.”
“whenever you are about to find fault with someone, ask yourself the following question: what fault of mine most nearly resembles the one i am about to criticize?”
“death is a release from the impressions of the senses, and from desires that make us their puppets, and from the vagaries of the mind, and from the hard service of the flesh.”
"within a very little while, thou wilt be either ashes, or a sceletum; and a name perchance; and perchance, not so much as a name. and what is that but an empty sound, and a rebounding echo? those things which in this life are dearest but vain, putrid, contemptible. tho most weighty and serious, if rightly esteemed, but as puppies, biting one another: or untoward children, now laughing and then crying. as for
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Sayfa 812)
Julie, Boris’e özel bir yakınlık gösterirdi; hayatta hayallerinin erken kırılmasına acır, hayatta kendisi de çok acı çekmiş biri olarak önerilerde bulunup dostluğuyla rahatlatır, açıp albümünü gösterirdi. Boris albümüne iki ağaç çizip, “Arbres rustiques, vos sombres rameaux secouent sur moi les ténèbres et la mélancolie”¹⁰ yazmıştı.
Bir başka yere de mezar resmi çizmiş ve şunları yazmıştı:
La mort est secourable et la mort est tranquille.
Ah! contre les douleurs il n’y a pas d’autre asile.¹¹
Julie bunun çok güzel olduğunu söyledi.
Kitabın birinden albümüne kaydettiği bir bölümü Boris’e kelimesi kelimesine okudu: “Il y a quelque chose de si ravissant dans le sourire de la mélancolie! C’est un rayon de lumière dans l’ombre, une nuance entre la douleur et le désespoir, qui montre la consolation, possible.”¹²
Boris buna karşılık şu şiiri yazdı:
10: Kırlardaki ağaçlar, kara dallarınızdan üzerime karanlık ve hüzün yağıyor.
11: Ölüm yardımseverdir ve ölüm huzurludur. Ah! Acı karşısında başka bir sığınak yoktur.
12: Hüznün gülümsemesinde büyüleyici bir şey vardır! Gölge içinde bir ışık huzmesi, acı ile ümitsizlik arasındaki, teselliyi mümkün gösteren bir nüans.
(Sayfa 813)
Aliment de poison d’une âme trop sensible,
Toi, sans qui le bonheur me serait impossible,
Tendre mélancolie, ah! viens me consoler,
Viens calmer les tourments de ma sombre retraite
Et mêle une douceur secrète
A ces pleurs, que je sens couler.¹³
Julie, Boris’e arpla en hüzünlü noktürnleri çaldı. Boris ona yüksek sesle “Bahtsız Liza”yı okudu, soluğunu kesen heyecan yüzünden birkaç kez ara vermek zorunda kaldı. Julie ve Boris kalabalık davetlerde birbirlerine, kayıtsızlar denizi içinde birbirini anlayan yegâne insanlar gibi bakarlardı.
Karaginlere sık sık giden Anna Mihaylovna, Julie’nin annesiyle
It could make sense to suppose that our own Universe is the only one that can exist or does exist, because it is the only one we live in and directly experience. Once, however, evidence arises that there is a second Universe as well, the one we call the para-Universe, then it becomes absolutely ridiculous to suppose that there are two and only two Universes. If a second Universe can exist, then an infinite number can. Between one and the infinite in cases such as these, there are no sensible numbers. Not only two, but any finite number, is ridiculous and can’t exist.
The words she blurted out contained no sensible resolutions or goals. They weren’t even sentences to begin with. Nothing more than an “exclamation,” devoid of fully formed words.
