“The thing is,” I continued, “I’m learning that it’s good to think about what scares you. To bring it into the light. Even to hold it in your hands, if you can, and feel how it can’t hurt you anymore. To think of it and say, ‘I am not afraid.’ It takes away its power, to look at it that way.”
Maybe a flock of birds flew overhead. Maybe the ghosts were waking up. But I was alone in my tiny cabin. Alone in the rise and the shudder.
Alone in the quiet after.
Billy set a bowl of fresh butter next to the bread. “Well, obviously my high was meeting Mila. Welcome to the farm. We’re super happy to have you.”
“Thank you,” I said. “My high is right now.”
"It’s magnificent,” she said. “But I don’t like it. It scares me. I love the sound,” Julia said. “The sight from a safe distance. A far distance. I like a view of the ocean, but not the actual thing of it."
We were standing at the edge of a bluff, looking down at the ocean. I felt my knees go weak and it surprised me. I hadn’t known there were new fears to discover.