İclal Gör
@iclalg
9 kütüphaneci puanı
25 okur puanı
Eylül 2021 tarihinde katıldı
-Burada ne yapıyorsun büyükanne, biz seni arıyoruz.
-Bu dağların ardında yitip gitmek istiyorum. Yitip gitmek...
Bu kurşuni ceketten alacağı para kim bilir nereye harcanacaktı. Bu on beş kuruş belki marangozun, çocuk tabutları yapan marangozun cebine girecekti.
"I was nine when I bothered my dad about love," I say, looking through the postcards again at places in my own city I never visited. "I wanted to know if it was under the couch or high up in the closet where I couldn't reach yet. He didn't say that 'love is within' or 'love is all around you.'"
Rufus wheels his bike beside me as we pass the gym. "I'm hooked. What did he say?"
"That love is a superpower we all have, but it's not always a superpower I'd be able to control. Especially as I get older. Sometimes it'll go crazy and I shouldn't be scared if my power hits someone I'm not expecting it to."
Sometimes I think I was afraid that without him my life would be just the same, or even worse, and I would have to accept that it was my fault. And it was easier and safer to stay in a bad situation than to take responsibility for getting out. Maybe, maybe. I don't know. I tell myself that I want to live a happy life, and that the circumstances for happiness just haven't risen. But what if that's not true? What if I'm the one who can't let myself be happy?
IN THE DARKNESS, two shadows, reaching through the hopeless, heavy dusk. Their hands meet, and light spills in a flood like a hundred golden urns pouring of the sun.
