Slipknot - Adderall
youtu.be/p8zamUoteG4
All they want is your control
For the Bible scares me so
Smell the ones who came here last
Must've lost the game too fast
We don't read between the lines
Cut too deep to see the signs
Watch me as my blood runs cold
Now your Bible can take hold.
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Lost Control
I know that I'm a mess
But I ain't tryna be the best
So, whatever's coming next
I better pray-ay-ay-ay
Never said I was an angel
I am damaged all the way
So, whatever's coming next
I better pray-ay-ay-ay
grief and melancholia
in melancholia,there's an anger towards that person for not actually giving them the understanding that they needed. which results in turning against one's self.
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in melancholia,there's a confusion about what that relationship meant,so you can't displace it somewhere else,cuz you simply don't know.
there's a desire to command that lost object, to make it yours and put it under your control. (narcissistic)
so you have to move beyond the abject, recognize the object is no longer valuable to you. let lit leave.
or understand what it all meant. so that you can finally move onto mourning.
Fearing for his life as his troops lost control of the city to the frenzied mob, Andronicus left Constantinople by ship, taking his young wife, Agnes, his mistress and a few attendants with him, in the hope of sailing across the Black Sea to his former refuge in Russia. Unfortunately, a contrary wind prevented the ship from making much progress up the Bosporus before the pursuers arrived. Andronicus was taken prisoner and dragged back to Constantinople. Hauled into the Hippodrome, the erstwhile emperor was lynched by the crowd, no doubt composed of many of the same people who had welcomed him so enthusiastically less than four years earlier.
To get over this sad affair, Stendhal wrote his famous book On Love, in which he described the effect of fear on desire. First, if you fear the loved one, you can never get too close or familiar with him or her. The beloved then retains an element of mystery, which only intensifies your love. Second, there is something bracing about fear. It makes you vibrate with sensation, heightens your awareness, is intensely erotic. According to Stendhal, the closer the loved one brings you to the edge of the precipice, to the feeling that they could abandon you, the dizzier and more lost you will become. Falling in love means literally falling—losing control, a mix of fear and excitement.
Apply this wisdom in reverse: never let your targets get too comfortable with you. They need to feel fear and anxiety. Show them some coldness, a flash of anger they did not expect. Be irrational if necessary. There is always the trump card: a breakup. Let them feel they have lost you forever, make them fear that they have lost the power to charm you. Let these feelings sit with them for a while, then pull them back from the precipice. The reconciliation will be intense.
Sayfa 377 - 20-Mix Pleasure with PainKitabı okudu
Bütün gün kafamın içinde Joy Division’ın “She’s Lost Control” şarkısı dönüp durdu. Ian Curtis. Matty. Onları bir şekilde birbirlerine örülmüş olarak düşündüm, ama tek ortak noktaları ölüm arzularıydı.
Damien takes a deep breath and clenches his fists. “Oh, so you do want to go home then?” his tone has lost some of its playful teasing and his eyes are just stern from anger.
He steps in closer to her. “Well, what if I told you that you are not going home right now?” he speaks in a firm and cold tone.
butterflys goes to her stomach, she loves when he talks like that but she's not going to show that.
"Then... Wehere am I going?"
Damien bites his bottom lip and looks at her. There’s now no teasing in his tone just authority and control. “My place…that’s where you’re going” he says and steps even closer to her, looking down at her.
He runs his fingers through her hair and pulls it back behind her head. His other arm is wrapped around her waist, he pulls her even closer towards him.