And you love her, yes. But not too much.”
“Why do you say that?”
“Because you are not mad, or wild, or grieving! You are not roaring out to choke her with your own bare hands! Which means your soul is not too mixed up with hers. And that is good. Here is my experience. Stay away from the ones you love too much. Those are the ones who will kill you. What you want to live and be happy in the world is a woman who has her own life and lets you have yours.
China’s official policy toward religious groups had not changed. Since the 1980s churches had been required to register with the federal government. Many refused to do so; they considered cooperating with state demands equivalent to making the government the head of the church, a role that belongs only to Jesus. For much of the previous thirty years, churches that didn’t register operated mostly unmolested. In more recent years, though, officials began enforcing existing policies more aggressively.
For if you do not see your soul, you see her in fellow men and this will drive you mad, since this devilish mystery and hellish spook can hardly be seen through.
(Çünkü ruhunu göremesen bile, onu diğer insanlarda görürsün ve bu seni çılgına çevirir; zira bu şeytani gizem ve cehennemvari hayaletin iç yüzünü anlamak neredeyse imkânsızdır.)