“You don’t really think this will save Peony, so don’t pretend this is about her. She has days. The chances of them finding a cure before—”
“Then my only mistake was in waiting too long to be rid of you,” Adri said, running the washcloth between her fingers. “Believe me, Cinder. You are a sacrifice I will never regret.”
How are you? We OK! But we have a problem. We have a big problem. We have a very very big problem. Me and Leyla (she is a my -girl- love) we can not come together. No together. So, impossible love. Love story. Giant's love. Like Shrek. Do you know Shrek? Anyway, if Leyla and I can together, it will be the end of World. I can hear that you say "oh my god!" We are the main causes of naturel disasters. Ups! Sorry :( But mukadderat (I can not translate it) I think that you have to help us. And if you save us, you save the World. Yes, it's weird. We want to buy spaceship from you. Leyla and I go to another planet by this spaceship. We will be happy there. If we have a child we will give your name to him or her: NASA! You happy? This spaceship is our bride car. I look forward to hearing from you soon. And İsmail Abi says that you don't work hard. Because sıyırırsın.
Best regards
Mecnun Ç. and İsmail A.
"You are the embodiment of selfishness," she said, "You save yourself something-I don't know what-but there is some selfish motive, and in sparing yourself you never consider for a moment what I think, or how I feel your neglect and Indifference, I suppose this is what you would call unwomanly, but I have got into a habit of expressing myself. It doesn't matter to me, and you may think me unwomanly if you like."
"No; I only think you cruel, as I sald the other day, Maybe not intentionally cruel; but you seem to be forcing me înto disclosures which can result in nothing as if you would have me bare a wound for the pleasure of looking at it, without the intention or power of healing it."
"Cevap şu ki, ne düşündüğünün bir önemi yok. Çünkü zihnin günde yüz kez kendiyle çelişir.
Onun gitmesini istiyordun ama aynı anda onu kurtarmam için çaresizce umut ediyordun.
Zihnin, rahatlatıcı yalanlara inanır… ama o yalanları gerekli kılan acı gerçekleri de bilir.
Ve ikisine birden inandığın için seni cezalandırır.”
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The answer is that it does not matter what you think. Because your mind will contradict itself a hundred times each day.
You wanted her to go at the same time you were desperate for me to save her.
Your mind will believe comforting lies while also knowing the painful truths that make those lies necessary. And your mind will punish you for believing both.